tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1865049990585186792024-03-20T02:09:37.877-07:00黑色的白色想象过深黑色的黑色和深白色的白色是怎样的颜色。然后我想黑色里也可以找到白色。Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-65782662298457023122017-03-16T04:47:00.001-07:002017-03-16T05:00:14.125-07:00還是會相聚<span style="font-size: large;">回想起多年前開始接觸佛教,開始探索佛教的人生观与生死大问時常去佛堂聽師父說法。有次在2011年9月21日,</span><span style="font-size: large;">师傅解說佛教的生死流转因缘结构时,说到了他小时候他最疼爱的二姐车祸离开他的事;“别离”是人世间八种苦的其中一种。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">最后他提到了一句“我们还是会再相见的”。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">听到这句,我不由自主的眼睛湿了起来。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">如果真的有生死流转,亲爱的人离开了,我们还会再次与亲爱的人相会。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">很喜欢龙应台写的<span style="color: #6fa8dc;"><a href="http://www.twghcmts.edu.hk/articles/lookafter.htm" target="_blank">《目送》</a></span>,她说人生就是一次次目送:</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">“<i>我慢慢地、慢慢地了解到,所谓父女母子一场,只不过意味着,你和他的缘分就是今生今世不断地在目送他的背影渐行渐远。你站立在小路的这一端,看着他逐渐消失在小路转弯的地方,而且,他用背影默默告诉你:不必追。</i>” </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Life of Pi戏里我很喜欢主角最后说的那句:</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">“<i>生命就是一个一直不断放手的过程,只是它总是不让你有道别的机会</i>”。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">以下是一篇我很喜欢的副刊文章,一直收在电邮里。第一次读到这篇感人的文章時,文章最后作者写“<i>彼此深情緣份一場,總有一天,我們還是會相聚的</i>”...</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">泪,我就这样落了下来。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">醫生從白簾布裡退出來,說:留一點時間給你們家屬。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">當時猜不透那是甚麼意思。後來才知道那是醫院的標準作業程序,當救治無效,身為家屬的我們擁有約莫10至15分鐘的私人時間,在被圍起來的白簾布內,和母親好好相陪一段,好好說再見。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">母親走了嗎? </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">風停雨歇,我沒有號啕大哭。我只是牽著母親冰冷的手,輕聲的唸著經文,靜靜的流淚,再靜靜的抹去眼淚,心裡不停的問,母親,是真的不再了嗎?……我開始喜歡牽母親的手,那是在她中風以後的事。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">因為我討厭在大白天看她睡著或者打瞌睡的樣子,那麼的與世隔絕、獨自沉醉,好似就此不再醒來般,死亡的想像讓我覺得恐怖、甚至害怕。藉由牽手可以讓膽小的我心情溫暖實在,有一種全然掌握情況的篤定安全感,手中花一朵,勝過滿苑圃的芳香。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">所以每次載她去洗腎中心的途中,我都會央求她把手交給我。我右手操控方向盤,左手牽著她的手,揉揉捏捏搓搓,在她身旁胡謅瞎搿,甚至瘋子一樣伴著收音機高聲亂吼,也不覺得尷尬。做這些癲狂的事,無非是不要母親一入睡後對我似銀河系般遙遠的疏離感。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">到了洗腎中心,情況易位對調,輪到膽小的母親囑咐我抓緊她的手,好讓兩支圓徑0.5公分粗的大針頭扎入血管時,她不會因承受不住疼痛而抽走,導致血管走位而扎不準。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">為此,扎針的護士、母親和我3人如大敵臨前,分秒怠忽不得。4個小時的洗腎療程裡,最難過的一關便數那一刻,母親真的是爹啊娘啊撕心裂肺的哭喊,一個中風如殘燭的老女人對於疼痛的承受點是很低的,低得無法讓人想像。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">好多次扎針失敗,看見母親手臂的肌肉瞬間腫脹瘀青,我於心不忍轉身偷偷拭去淚水,心想要是痛苦能夠轉嫁,我是可以心甘情願全部攬下來的,然而真實的情況卻是要她獨自去扛這無以名狀的痛,冰敷一陣,重新扎針,再從腫脹的肌肉裡尋找躲藏的血管,銜接回長長的導管裡。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">那種心酸著實難耐,心底徒然升起一股衝動想把她抱起來,說:走,不插針,不洗腎了,我們回家。當時多麼幼稚的我,母親不洗腎,不就判她的死刑嗎? </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我總是想,母親這條命,是我用錢交換來的。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">她的時間,以星期計。一星期3次,每次4個小時的洗腎療程,贖得一身乾淨無尿素瀦留的血液。白花花的錢是花去了,然而一絲悔憾也沒有,倒是愈加珍惜,我能擁有她當下的每一刻都是幸福,都值得開香檳慶祝。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">若是完成一次無特殊狀況發生的洗腎,母子倆總是逕自歡喜感恩,回程的路上,縱然已入夜,母親手臂上的止血棉紗仍在,我在車裡牽著她的手,穿過一盞又一盞的街燈,在轉角處還不忘考她,看到國油油站表示甚麼?母親回答:噢!要到家了。然後任由她對著漆黑的前方路口亂指一通,作我的嚮導說轉這轉那的,我笑不攏口,說我就是你的家,我到那裡,你就跟我到那裡。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">於是把她的手握得更緊。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我想,前世母親一定是我的女兒,才讓我這麼的寶貝寵溺。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">那是一種熨貼心懷的應答,一種屬於我倆人的密秘訊號,我總是無時無刻的問她,我叫甚麼名字,她回答:阿全。阿全是誰?她回答:我的兒子。簡單,讓我心滿意足。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">後來,洗腎的時間長了,母親的身體狀況愈差。那時她有些模糊,沉睡的時間也愈久,我牽著她的手,貼近臉問她我叫甚麼名,她瞇縫的眼睜開一條線,隱約見到眼珠子溜轉,慵懶又虛弱的回答,阿全。簡短,卻讓我心如刀割。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">再後來,連阿全都叫不出了。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">母親仍在,我安慰自己,她只是很累,需要更長時間的休息,來恢復身體耗損的精神元氣。驗血報告說她血紅素偏低,導致倦怠易睏,似乎合理解釋了她的異常,可我還是恐懼罣礙,因為往後的每一次洗腎,母親都像是歷劫歸來,洗掉了身上兩公升水分,她輕得像一團雲絮,虛弱得像布偶,可以輕易的被捧在懷裡、放在輪椅、抱進車裡。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">回程的路上她又嗜睡,睡得讓人心生不安。我從經常抽問到偶爾發問,同樣的路燈過去了,國油油站過去了,疲憊的嚮導無暇兼顧,只選擇性回答,大部份時間沉默。但我還是牽著她的手,即便彼時她徜徉在夢裡,不論走了多遠我都要把她牽回去。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">於是從洗腎中心到急診室,從普通病房到後來的加護病房,在醫院的長廊穿梭來去,我以為一直牽母親的手,便可以無限延長告別的時間。因為我還沒有準備好對她放手,說服自己她已然敗壞的器官無法再負荷強藥劑的抗生素。姐姐來電,家鄉長輩來電,勸我放手,讓她走吧!整個世界僅剩我一人徒勞掙扎,拔河的另一端我勢單力薄,愚騃如我,是唯一一個參不透人間世的成住壞空、緣起緣滅。但我還是不停在她耳邊問她同樣的問題,我是誰?叫我?看我。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">彷彿我已忘了身份,一再的希望從她口中確認秘語,證實彼此仍存在著親暱關係。一旦牽了手,便是誓約。醫生對我說,醫院尊重家屬的意願,隨時可以提供各項的急救措施,且臚列各種於我如酷刑的選擇:心肺複甦、插喉管、電擊……。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">真的非得如此嗎?眼前這麼一個孱弱的,我的老母親,扎一口針都痛得呼天搶地,此刻非得經歷這些慘烈的程序,只為了滿足我無能放棄割捨的情? </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">這次我真的要放手了 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我抽身離開,站在醫院的長廊外,一個無人看見的所在掩面哭嚎一陣,徹底傾瀉滿腹的心酸委屈。然後踱回病床對醫生說:呼吸停了,不救。心臟停了,不救。血壓低了,不救。每個答案都錐心刺肉,我回頭看看母親,重又牽她的手,滿是愧疚,對她說:抱歉了母親,走到了這一步,這次我真的要放手了。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">然後無奈的看著醫護人員一件一件的卸下母親身上的醫療儀器。從主治醫生恩賜的最後片刻寧靜裡,我學習靜靜的說:再見。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">對於這體貼的安排,不知該傷懷還是感激。我拉起白布簾,隔開周圍的雜蕪凌亂,牽著母親的手開始自言自語,一再的懷疑:母親是在還是不在了? </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">不久醫護人員把我支開,說要幫母親淨身。待我回頭踅進加護病房,母親的身體已被白布緊緊包裹,雙手束綁在肚腹上,像一具木乃伊。主治醫生交給我幾張單據,確定了:7月24日下午3點1刻,星期天,注記母親和這個世界說再見的時間。死因:肺感染。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">在運屍車載母親至殮屍房的漫長等待裡,我對著眼前一團白布發愣良久,心想這次真的牽不到母親的手了。然後母親的遺體被一個巨大的鐵蓋罩住,從加護病房被推出來,拐過一排排的病床,進電梯,出電梯,眼前路人無意撞見,神色慌張紛紛掉頭閃避。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">一路相送到殮屍房已是傍晚,暮色降臨,詭譎陰森的氣氛瀰漫。值勤人員說處理好這一具他便要下班了。填上我的姓名身份證號碼,簽名,表示把屍體領走了。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">直到把母親推進預定的救護車裡,我對兩個馬來年輕司機千囑萬咐,額外塞了錢,雖然這是他們的日常工作,但載著母親,我的要求就不一樣。班台老家遠在800公里外,夜路漫長難行,絕不容有閃失。車子發動,我猶不放心,攔下他們,爬上車掀開包裹的白布,再一次撫摸母親的臉說:媽媽,不要怕,你在前頭先走,我在後面跟著。穿過黑夜,抵步黎明,我們在老家相見。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">躍下車,才放心讓母親離去。車子從斜坡滑下,經過對面的友族墓園,閃著訊號燈轉右,然後消失在我的視線裡,我揮揮手,一句再見卻怎麼也說不出口。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">照顧母親經年,那是第一次讓她在那麼長的旅途中沒有牽著我的手,這莫名擔憂又油然而生。母親的單人旅程,是離去也是歸途。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我站在殮屍房外,暮色真的罩下來了,工作人員走出來說要關門。我趨前與他握手,感謝幫忙。臨走前再環顧四周,突然記住了這個地方,這種氛圍和無力感。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">母親,縱然不捨,牽過的手,我不得不在此放下。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">此去,真的是死生契闊。我想,父親會在遠方引接你的。兩年裡相繼送走摯愛的父母親,至此我成了孤兒。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">但彼此深情緣份一場,總有一天,我們還是會相聚的。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">The final month of the year will come after tomorrow.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Perhaps this year is quite a fulfilling year to me, which I'd ever had. I
carried out most of the new year's resolution I planned although I have
discontinued some, some came unexpected, some never been carried out,
yet I am still not very happy also not to say unhappy. I don't know why but I still cannot find a very clear direction and answer to the best possible life. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">So, still searching.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><br />Here are the resolutions:<br />1)
<i>Do more reading</i> - did read some books, many articles, but my reading
speed was slow. Need to read more books and not facebook. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">2) <i>Learn to swim</i> - I didn't know how to float at all, but I am now learning butterfly style after 19 sessions.</span></div>
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<i> Join toastmaster</i> - initially it was a firm plan to join a toastmaster
club because I wana extend my circle and also improve my public speaking
skill, but I had to postpone it because of new plan to learn Japanese
language (with personal reason). But after completed first level of
Japanese class, I decided to stop learning it because of other
commitments although i love the language (also the personal reason has
not been realized, but then I went to Canada). I will join toastmaster, I
will, perhaps next year.</span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;">4) <i>Practice meditation</i> - I attended
meditation class every Tues early this year, but somehow I did not
continue after 2nd quarter of the year. I should make practicing
meditation as a lifestyle as what I do for exercise but I lack of
diligence. </span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;">5) <i>Investment</i> - continue learning and doing.</span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;">6) <i>Save money</i> - saved some, but need to keep life even more simple.</span></div>
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<i>Transform body/ six packs abs</i> - successfully transformed the fat
botakman to a lean boy, but six packs abs still needs a lot of
hardwork....</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">8) <i>Run a full marathon</i> 42.195km - successfully ran 2 full marathons in a year (the Standard Chartered KL Marathon 29th Sept. 2013 and the Penang Bridge International Marathon 17 Nov 2013).</span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;">9) <i>Improve knowledge and practice in Buddhism</i> - I did not improve much, lack of diligence is acknowledged.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">10) <i>Family</i> - love my parents and my niece more, I did it but I should give more.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">The wish to go to London in 2012 to attend conference (self financed) did not come true because it was so expensive. But out of my expectation, I got the chance to visit to London this year Sept.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Future plan in my mind - study MBA, triathlon race/ Ironman race, but I don't have a clear plan yet. Currently I feel uncertainty for 2014. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">What I want to do now is, disconnect from FB, lock myself in room do my reading and prepare whatever I should for December 2013.</span></div>
<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-23656135810128268722013-07-05T09:38:00.002-07:002013-07-05T10:15:06.438-07:00Documentation: My Results in Past Major Running Events<span style="font-size: large;">One of the reason why I started this blog is to train my writing skills. But slowly due to busy and lazy, I almost forget to open this blog. Sigh!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I supposed to have my very first full marathon in my life on last Sunday 30 June 2013, the Standard Chartered KL Marathon. But sadly, it was being postponed due to the stupid haze. </span><span style="font-size: large;">You may imagine h</span><span style="font-size: large;">ow much time wasted, how much cost wasted, how many people were affected (there are total of 30,250 runners this year with more than 3000 overseas runners). </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For myself and my buddy, we can't reschedule our flight and hotel, although we booked our budget flight during promotion but because we have to come again in September, we need to spend extra RM200 for transportation + accommodation. Anyway, the organiser is not to be blamed as they were making a very hard decision to postpone it for the sake of the majority runners with the unpredictable haze situation last week.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I had run in various 10km races. But for distance more than 10km, till date I had run two 17km races and two half marathon (21km) only, but then I move to full marathon this year. Some people might feel that I am putting myself on risk or I am brave. But I just think that I can do it when I see my body slowly become stronger and my confidence increases through out this 8 months.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So today I am writing this to document my result for the past major running events for my own future reference.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">1) My "virgin" run - Penang Bridge International Marathon 2011, 20th November.</span><br />
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<span class="fbPhotosPhotoCaption" data-ft="{"type":45}" id="fbPhotoPageCaption" style="font-size: large;" tabindex="0"><span class="hasCaption">Chip Time: 1:20:11.27<br /> Ranking : 1443/3696</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">2) Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2012, 24th June.</span><br />
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01:28:34</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Split 5km: 00:42:26</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Ranking: 3921</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">3) Penang Bridge International Marathon 2012, 18th November.</span><br />
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<span class="fbPhotosPhotoCaption" data-ft="{"type":45}" id="fbPhotoPageCaption" style="font-size: large;" tabindex="0"><span class="hasCaption">Chip Time: 02:47:13.11</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">4) 17km Penang Run 2013, 27th January.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Gun Time: 02:04:01</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Chip Time:02:02:56</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Category Ranking (Junior Open): 187/ 357</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Overall Ramking: 682/1205</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">5) Malakoff, 17km Penang 2013, 17th March.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Gun Time: 01:43:06.07</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Chip Time: 01:42:56.44 </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">9.2km Split: 00:58:46.35</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Men's Open Ranking: 249/ 944</span><br />
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<span class="fbPhotosPhotoCaption" data-ft="{"type":45}" id="fbPhotoPageCaption" style="font-size: large;" tabindex="0"><span class="hasCaption">Overall Ranking - 218</span></span><br />
<span class="fbPhotosPhotoCaption" data-ft="{"type":45}" id="fbPhotoPageCaption" style="font-size: large;" tabindex="0"><span class="hasCaption">Mix Ranking - 187<br /> Category Ranking - 98 </span></span><br />
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Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-47405739879676004802013-06-02T07:18:00.003-07:002013-06-02T07:31:37.248-07:00Running a Marathon<span style="font-size: large;">It has been many months, nearly half a year I didn't update my blog because I had been busy since the start of this 2013 to carry out my new year's resolution. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Well the main motive when I started this blog is to aim improve my skills of writing both in Mandarin and English, it really needs a continuous motivation to write. But it is often burried by laziness.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Part of my planning for this year is to learn Japanese, learn swimming and run a marathon. In runners world, when we say run a marathon it automatically means running a 42.195km marathon, the so called full marathon. Running a 21km run is called half marathon while running 10km run is not categorized as marathon, it is normally called 10km race or fun run.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I started my Japanese language class since March 2013. Learning Japanese language is an ongoing process and still a lot of things to be learnt and memorized. Regarding swimming, I did not know how to swim even float in the water at all. I always wanted to know the feeling of moving in the water since many years ago but now only I started to learn swimming since March. It was a great experience in learning swimming, at the initial stage it made me realized that how poor my body's coordination and how stiff my body was when I was in the water. But it also made me realized that my learning ability is quite fast, I could float and started to learn breaststroke kick during 1st lesson, 2nd lesson learnt hand movement, 4th lesson breathing, hand and leg coordination, 5th lesson fine tuning breastroke and 7th lesson started to learn freestyle.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Let's come back to the title, running a marathon. I will be running a marathon in this coming 30th June 2013, in the Standard Chartered KL Marathon (SCKLM) 2013, my first (full) marathon in my life. I ran few 10km races, two 17km races, and two half marathons. Last year I had my first half marathon 21km in the Penang Bridge International Marathon (PBIM) 2012, will write about the improvements I made in another article later for my own documentation as well.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Running a (full) marathon, is not an easy stuff, it's killing! People often said you must run numerous half marathons then only can try full marathon. But I don't believe, I believe in a stronger leg and not the numbers of races. This is because I never ran many half marathons but I made a 30mins improvement in my 2nd half marathon this year compare to my first half marathon PBIM last year. So I ran twice in half marthon and this year I am going to run in a (full) marathon. The cut off time for SCKLM 2013 is 6 hours to complete the 42.195km in order to get the finisher medal and finisher tee. I believe I can finish it within 6 hours, but my concern is how fast I can finish it. <span class="userContent" data-ft="{"tn":"K"}"> </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span class="userContent" data-ft="{"tn":"K"}">So, another 30days for my first (full) marathon in my life, I feel excited! There are many training programs and guidelines being suggested by
experts for running a (full) marathon such as HIIT, hill, tempo training,
LSD and so on. Well, I neither read any of those articles nor have time to accumulate weekly millage. I<span class="text_exposed_show">t's
good if one can follow those suggestions. It definitely can improve one's stamina. But I don't have enough time
already, so I'm using my very own approach, the combination of weight
training, swimming + running 3x per week (if possible). I
believe weight training plays an important role for stronger legs,
better endurance and to run faster. So for the next few weeks I will do
more lunges, squats, dead lift, and back strengthening for a stronger
posterior chain. <br /> <br /> My target is 5 hours. Let's see! </span></span></span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-88050563570495623872012-12-28T07:52:00.002-08:002012-12-28T07:57:47.427-08:00豆腐<span class="userContent" style="font-size: large;">多数时候晚上我健身完驾车經過那裡时,總會不自覺(應該是故意)地彎進去吃釀豆腐。</span><br />
<span class="userContent" style="font-size: large;">一个星期最少都有两次。 </span><br />
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<span class="userContent" style="font-size: large;">慢慢地我发现,我其實是<wbr></wbr>要看美女。</span><br />
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<span class="userContent" style="font-size: large;">不過說真的,她真的非常非常漂亮和可愛。</span><br />
<span class="userContent" style="font-size: large;">白皙的肤色,瓜子脸,娇小玲珑,别致的脸蛋,散发出一种难以言语的气质。</span><br />
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<span class="userContent" style="font-size: large;">美女賣豆腐,哇咾 A! <br /> <br /> 所以她就這樣賺了我的錢…</span><br />
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Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-67257750738212744312012-11-29T08:59:00.000-08:002013-11-29T03:27:35.375-08:00警惕自己的话 My Favourite Aphorisms<span style="font-size: large;">1. 你所浪费的今天,是昨天死去的人奢望的明天。你所厌恶的现在,是未来的你回不去的曾经。</span><span style="font-size: large;">Today which you have wasted, is actually the tomorrow for those who died yesterday hope for. Your current situation that you hate now, will become the past that you cannot come back in the future.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">2. </span><span style="font-size: large;">假如一个人的寿命为60岁,那么他总共只有21900天。<wbr></wbr>一生时间的用途分别为:睡20年(7300天);吃饭6年(<wbr></wbr>2190天);穿衣和梳洗5年(1825天);生病3年(<wbr></wbr>1095天);打电话1年(365天),照镜子70天;<wbr></wbr>抹鼻涕10天。最后只剩下3205天,即8年又285天,<wbr></wbr>用来做你真正想要做的事情。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">If the life of a person is 60 years old, then he will have a total of 21900 days during his lifetime. This lifetime will be used for: </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">sleeping 20 years (7300 days); eating 6 years (2190 days); dressing and grooming 5 years (1825 days), fall sick 3 years (1095 days); talking on phone 1 year (365 days), make up/ looking at mirror 70 days; having runny nose 10 days. It left only 3205 days after deducting the above, ie 8 years and 285 days, for you to do what you really want to do.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">3. 人开始时往往为梦想而忙,后来却因为忙碌而失去梦想。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Often people become busy when start pursuing their dream, but eventually people lost their dream due to busyness. </span> Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-43186882834839170202012-11-27T08:49:00.000-08:002012-11-28T06:24:28.441-08:00去年今天<span style="font-size: large;">去年今天你在做什么?</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">What did you do today in last year?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我在日本和秋天有个邂逅。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">I was at Japan, falling in love with Autumn.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我是个有福的人,很幸运当时被公司委派去日本南部考察。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">I always feel that I am a very lucky person. I was being selected by my organization for a study trip to South Japan.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">除了考察,当然是尽最大力气去看、去逛、去记住这个美丽的国都,同时享受秋天的宁静。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">Other than learning the Japanese system,
of course with the greatest effort to see, to visit as many places as I
can and to remember this beautiful country, as well as enjoying the serenity of the Autumn.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">日本的北九州市(Kitakyushu-shi),是个非常舒服的地方。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">Kitakyushu-shi is a very nice and comfortable place.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">其让人感觉舒服的部分是拥有宽敞的空间,宽敞的行人道,建筑之间也不会让你感到很有压迫感,就是协调得很自然。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">It has a very spacious environment, wide pedestrian walk
way, the setting between buildings also does not make you feel
oppressive; it is just so naturally coordinated.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">这里地方虽然很大但却不是大城市,这里的生活步骤也不快。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Kitakyushu-shi is quite a big area/ district, but it is not a metropolis. The life at here is also just in a moderate pace.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: medium;"></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">你会看到很多老人家在路上行走,都很独立却也是孤独的。</span><span style="font-size: medium;"> </span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">You will see a lot of elderly on the road, they are very independent, but I also see the lonely shadow of them. </span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></span><span style="font-size: large;">这里不喧闹,路上的汽车也不多。</span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: medium;"> </span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-size: medium;">This is a very peaceful and quite place, there was not many cars on the road as well.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">秋天的气候寒冷凉快,这里的一切一切美得让人想恋爱。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">The cold and cool climate of Autumn, the mountain, the
people, the land and sky, everything here was so beautiful until made
you feel you want to be in love.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">当时的我很有感触地在心头里想,如果我有爱人,能够和她在这寒冷的秋天,手牵手漫步在这秋叶转红的道路;那么此刻世间不再无需语言,寒冷变得多么的美,因为我牵着你温暖的手心。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">I was very touched with the beauty of this land and was
thinking in my heart that, if I have a lover and could hand in hand walk
<span style="font-size: medium;">along</span> this red autumn leaves' road, <span lang="en"> then </span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span lang="en">this world is no longer require any language</span></span><span style="font-size: medium;"><span lang="en"> during that moment but just feel the beauty of serenity and the cold; because I have you with me, I am holding your warm ha<span style="font-size: medium;">nd</span>.</span></span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">幸福其实就是当你感觉当下那一刹那拥有着不变不移的永恒。这不也是一种浪漫吗?</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;"><span lang="en">Happiness is when you feel the inalienable eternal in the flash of present moment. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我怀念日本秋天的美。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">I miss the beauty of the autumn in Japan.</span><span style="font-size: large;"> </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我不知此生还有没有因缘再踏足日本,但是我希望日后有机会和爱人漫步在日本这宁静的秋季道路,看秋叶转红,看它被风吹起的妩媚......</span><br />
<span style="font-size: medium;">I do not know whether I will be able to
set foot in Japan again or not in the rest of my life, but I am looking
forward for the opportunity to walk along this peaceful and serene Autumn road in Japan, with my lover, to see the autumn leaves turn red,
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<i>谨以此文献给我远方的日本朋友,小浜須賀子。</i><br />
<i>This article is dedicated to my dearest Japanese friend, Obama Sugako-san.</i> <br />
<span style="font-size: large;"></span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-23990372056228612742012-11-26T09:46:00.000-08:002012-11-26T09:52:17.975-08:00内涵 - 女人与汉堡<span style="font-size: large;">老麦都是以卖汉堡为主攻,而老肯的汉堡怎样都比不过老麦,有人说因为老肯是卖鸡的。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">其实我主观地认为问题除了老肯败在是卖鸡的,另外老肯的汉堡就是少了点点什么的。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">高级一点的叫法就是“内涵”。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">因为炸鸡来来去去就是那两三种脆辣和原味在卖,也没什么特别的花样可以玩。 </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">虽然老肯的餐单里也有几种汉堡的选择,可是大致上只是名字不同,样子和size稍微不同,可是东西是一样的。其所有汉堡的面包都是使用口感不佳的同款芝麻面包,同样的芝士,汉堡的鸡肉就是其炸鸡肉,蔬菜和调味mayonnaise都大同小异。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">有一次,老肯推出新汉堡,名字好像是叫什么“劲歌极限”的,广告更是“势必轰炸你的味蕾”,我也馋嘴去买来试了;结果一吃下去我就后悔了。吃到一半时我更想哭了,因为这汉堡就像打扮得花枝招展的女人,但言行举止粗鲁,一开口说话人家就知道其程度了。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">这劲歌极限汉堡使用的是口感差劲的芝麻面包,同样的芝士与不新鲜的蔬菜,然后配上很甜而且颜色黄得很漂亮的罐头黄梨片,加上其典型的美奶滋和脆辣炸鸡块,我又加入老肯的辣椒酱,味道全部捞埋一起......啊,很腻!从此,我就好像再也没有买老肯的汉堡吃了。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">反观老麦,其汉堡样子看起来简单朴实,可是每一个汉堡都有其特色,就像有品味的女人无需打扮得花枝招展只穿简单的连身裙也能够穿出其韵味。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">老麦加上其早餐应该有卖超过十种汉堡。如果你有察觉到,它的每一个汉堡几乎从面包,肉饼的烹调,蔬菜,美奶滋到芝士都经过精心设计以特出其汉堡的口味。打个比方,其鱼柳汉堡和早餐鸡肉麦满分应该是最简单的汉堡,因为只有肉饼,面包,芝士和美奶滋,没有蔬菜。可是其面包是有考究的,鱼柳汉堡的面包是极松软的现蒸面包,美奶滋里掺了比较重味道的调味菜碎(不知叫什么名字)以掩盖鱼柳的腥味。而麦满分的面包更特别,外表粉滑,里面却松散的,配上奶味比较重的芝士和甜滑的美奶滋,简单但特别。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">这个星期二,我跟随office的staffs一大班人出去做operasi,侦查看哪家店的雇主没有遵从法律然后开罚单。侦查行动没什么特别,只是觉得有点浪费时间,所以我不会在这里写。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">中午休息时,我们去了附近的TESCO吃午餐。吃完午餐后等其他同事摸东摸西或者祈祷时,我就和几位同事在food court周围徘徊。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">然后我看到了一个马来中年男子带着三个孩子。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">这个马来中年男子短头发,身穿白色T 恤于牛仔裤与拖鞋,外表有点邋遢和瘦。他有可能顶不顺孩子吵闹,所以他来到了冰淇淋档口要买冰淇淋塞孩子的嘴巴。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">三个孩子中,可见最大的是大约是就读一二年级的姐姐,第二的儿子大概是六七岁,最小的儿子应该有三四岁。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">三个孩子都是邋邋遢遢的,但姐姐算是最懂事吧;因为姐姐看起来比较乖巧没有像弟弟在吵闹。最小的弟弟应该还不会说话,只会咿咿呀呀地在那里哭闹。小孩子穿的白色衣服好像没更换,脏了黑黑灰灰的。孩子的眼泪干了在脸颊留下痕迹,玩闹的汗水干了后,全身看起来粘粘的。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">这个马来中年男子从裤带掏出了几块钱纸币,烂烂皱皱的,整个情形让我感觉他是贫穷的。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">圣代冰淇淋买了三支,小孩子一人一支,最小的也不哭闹了。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">付了钱,孩子吃冰淇淋,这男子也没理会孩子,慵懒地走到旁边去。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">最小的孩子两只小手一握冰淇淋就迫不及待地往嘴巴里塞,小拇指都沾到了冰淇淋,而且整个嘴唇和下巴都是冰淇淋;但是父亲没理会。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"> 然后他掏出了手机,像是拨电话给妻子,语气不是很耐烦,可是我听不清楚他对着电话说写什么。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">那种眼神,那种步履,那种心态,那种无奈,其实是一种悲哀。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><u>B) 女人的无奈</u></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">今天星期六早上,我带了外甥女去巴刹吃早餐和买早餐给父母。在巴刹吃早餐时,坐在我们前面的是一个华人家庭,爸爸妈妈和三个孩子也在吃早餐。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">三个孩子都很乖巧且干净,虽然没有调查显示华裔家庭的孩子比巫裔的乖巧,但是我主观地观察到华裔家庭对于孩子没有那么放任所以孩子都比较有规矩。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">最大的姐姐在吃果条汤,第二的弟弟自己安静地吃炒米粉,最小的弟弟坐在妈妈旁边等妈妈喂;他有点调皮。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">然后最忙的是妈妈,最静的是爸爸。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">妈妈一直在忙着吃的同时顾着最小的弟弟和第二的儿子。最小的孩子一直无法安静地坐着,他不是爬上爬下就是在旁边走动。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">这个妈妈就一直对着三个孩子叮咛个不停。然而那个父亲就一言不发,只是顾着吃自己的面和点心烧卖。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我就一面吃着我的椰浆饭一面观察这个妈妈的表情以及这个爸爸的表情。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">这个爸爸吃完后潇洒地站起来说要去换DVD,然后三个孩子尾随他去了巴刹后面卖DVD的档口,留下这个妈妈一个人。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">我看到这个妈妈很喘很忙,她看了看桌上孩子剩下的食物,然后把孩子的碗拉了过来,我想她应该是不想浪费食物。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">看样子爸爸不理不睬,能把三个孩子顾到这么乖巧其实这个妈妈真不简单。可以想象昔日的青春少艾和好身材已不复再。我不是指这男人不好,可能他是一个好父亲我不懂。只是他好像没有看到他妻子忙到吃也不得空。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-17215023384987759192012-11-24T07:15:00.002-08:002012-11-24T07:24:19.083-08:00毅力<span style="font-size: large;">一年一度的槟城大桥马拉松赛事,终于于11月18日圆满结束了。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">我也如愿地挑战了自己的毅力和能力去到哪个程度,也证明了只要有计划,没有事是办不到的。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我大约于两年前开始涉足马拉松赛,在此要感谢我的老友的拉拢我才会对此运动产生兴趣。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">无他,那时觉得生活沉闷,只想尝试一些我没尝试过的事情。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">由于我的膝盖在进入大学前担任临教带学生打羽球时受过伤(那时笨笨也没钱看医生,所以不知什么伤,现在我应该有osteoarthritis啦),所以从此需要脚步动作变换快速的运动比如篮球和打羽球我就没再碰了。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">所以简单的跑步成为我运动的首选。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我一路来都是参加10km的马拉松赛,当时也没有什么特别训练。所以都是用了大概1小时20多分钟接近30分钟赛会规定的时间来跑完10公里的距离。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">而且跑完就虾虾喘到要断气,脚也好像要断了般,体能真差。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">在参加了几次的10公里赛程后,决定在今年槟城大桥马拉松赛事最后一年于第一大桥历史性的最后一跑,挑战我生平的第一个Half Marathon 21km。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">为了准备面对,从十月开始我每一天下班后都会跑3到5公里来锻炼自己的体能。同时参加RPM Spinning Class(骑脚车)锻炼stamina和cardio,举重锻炼腿部肌肉。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">由于是第一次挑战21km,当时我不懂我可以以多久时间完成,但是我觉得应该可以在规定的时间也就是3小时30分钟里跑完21公里。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">一个月半的锻炼终于派上用场,出乎我的意料的是今年的槟城大桥马拉松赛我用了2小时47分钟跑完了21公里,跑完不会觉得很喘很累,只是小腿很酸痛。</span><br />
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<tr><td><span style="font-size: large;">9KM Split</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">:</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">01:11:00.44</span></td></tr>
<tr><td><span style="font-size: large;">17KM Split</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">:</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">02:11:13.31</span></td></tr>
<tr><td><span style="font-size: large;">ChipTime</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">:</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">02:47:13.11</span></td></tr>
<tr><td><span style="font-size: large;">GunTime</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">:</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">02:49:08.66
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<tr><td><span style="font-size: large;">Ranking</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;">:</span></td><td><span style="font-size: large;"><b>1992</b>/5705</span></td></tr>
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<span style="font-size: large;">其实,用多少时间完成都没有关系, 只要能完成就是对自身毅力一种很好的考验。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">明年槟城大桥马拉松赛事将会在即将建好的第二大桥开跑。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-69211190625554923192012-09-13T09:09:00.001-07:002012-09-13T09:22:29.093-07:00累<span style="font-size: large;">人,真的可以很无耻。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">为了自己的利益,可以给你无端端加上罪名。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">面对人、处理人的事情的工作,真的很累。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">内部处于动荡不安的时候,外面又不时有炮火射过来,内忧外患,简直是时时刻刻都在准备挡箭。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">最近和上头H医生讨论一个个案,他说:“这是一个很挑战的个案,不简单。你需要慢慢来,bla bla bla....如果你成功协助这个病人回去做工,那你将会得到一种满足与成就感。”</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">其实,我当时心里是这样想的:</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">当我们在工作上所面对的问题与困境,每次向高层提出后都没有被高层解决,反而让多数员工都学到了高层的标准回答“你们必须要和各个部门沟通,你们必须加强沟通能力与技巧,你们必须懂得分配时间”。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">那种让我们自生自灭的无助感,同时工作方面明显的不平衡对待,再加上越来越多丧心病狂不符合资格的病人所制造的麻烦都抛给我们去收手尾,导致我们员工所承受的压力不降反增,进而对于工作所产生的不满。这种不满其实已经大大掩盖了那极为稀有的成功个案所带来的满足与成就感。当不满已经超越了成就感呈现不平衡,这时所谓的成就感已没有什么价值了。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">但我没对H医生这么说。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">今天看到一个video clip,还算蛮幽默的。 </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">我其实已经像以下这个video的阿叔所说的这样想了:</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">“I tell you har....one day har....I am going to quit this nightmare。”</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-14613117160006523032012-08-27T05:51:00.004-07:002012-08-27T05:54:52.567-07:00理性的道德 <span style="font-size: large;">林放先生于八月二十一日在星洲日报言路版的<a href="http://opinions.sinchew-i.com/node/25149" target="_blank">《道德医生vs战地医生》</a>(下称《道》)一文刊登后,“反萧源盛造假学历经历粉丝团”(下称“反萧”)面子书专页(目前已封页)上即掀起了一阵讨论。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">我自上个月就常留意“反萧”的资料更新与网民们的精彩讨论,所以觉得林君在《道》中的论点有失客观,特写此文以为广大理性的网民说句公道话。本来这篇文章我是投稿给星洲日报的,可是没有被选中刊登。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">林君在文中直指反萧的粉丝网民们为千刀万里追地进击、逼使萧源盛作出声明、不讲求仁慈和宽容、用追杀的凶猛看别人的狼藉不堪以从中得到快感的仇恨者,用词之强烈让人哗然。根据我的观察,反萧面子书专页里的网民多数都是理性讨论,以理服人的一群而且不乏专业人士如医生,工程师与律师等。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">但是当中难免会有部分网友的言论是不当与充满情绪的,可是我们也不能一支竹竿打翻整船人。事实上,反萧粉丝们已经给予萧源盛足够的仁慈与宽容等待萧源盛回来亲自澄清一切疑点。可是萧源盛并没有好好把握机会,继续玩弄文字发表无道歉之意的声明同时没有厘清一切疑问,才会提升网民的不满进而报案。所以,林君说网民逼使萧源盛作出声明其实是不正确的。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">作出声明其实就是萧源盛根本应有的责任,因为善心民众之前寄予他信任而捐款以便希望通过萧源盛去帮助有需要帮助的人,所以他有必要面对民众作出声明。此外,林君间接地让读者认为是网民用仇恨和凶猛导致萧源盛的狼藉不堪,其实是萧源盛本身的欺骗造成自己的狼藉不堪,实与网友无关。如果没有欺骗,他大可以坦荡荡站出来反驳,可是他没有。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">再来,林君把萧源盛退款的行为合理化为对捐款者的交代,却避开不谈捐款的去向,甚至指款汇入萧源盛的户头的捐款没有“动静”,让广大有跟进事件发展的民众啼笑皆非。根据星洲日报李耀祥记者于八月十六日在大北马笔笔皆是专栏<a href="http://www.facebook.com/notes/%E6%98%9F%E6%B4%B2%E6%97%A5%E5%A0%B1%E5%A4%A7%E5%8C%97%E9%A6%AC/%E5%A4%A7%E5%8C%97%E9%A6%AC%E8%A8%98%E8%80%85%E8%A9%95%E8%AB%96%E7%AD%86%E7%AD%86%E7%9A%86%E6%98%AF%E8%AB%8B%E8%95%AD%E6%BA%90%E7%9B%9B%E8%87%AA%E9%87%8D/456589957696543" target="_blank">《请萧源盛自重》</a>一文,冯久玲说捐款是10万零吉,但不久对媒体说是8万零吉,用掉2万以后剩6万,但萧源盛却在面子书说只有3万8千99零吉97仙。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">可是到今时今日,全世界都还不知道真正共有多少捐款,用了多少以及用在哪里,因为萧源盛从没有清楚交代捐款的去向。试问,退款又怎么能够当作是对捐款者的交代呢?</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">如果以萧源盛把善款退回给热心人士作为对其行为负责的逻辑来看,那么是否只要国家养牛中心事件的涉及者把政府的贷款全额退回给政府,就算是对事件负责而免了失信的责任?这根本是说不过去的。另外,网民集体报案促请警方查办萧源盛的欺骗,其实主要并不是如林君所说的因为萧源盛的道歉诚意不足。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">根据我的观察,网民愤而报警是因为萧源盛没有如之前承诺般现身清楚交代善款细节和去向,没有厘清所有的指责更没有承认他的欺骗行为。我认为经林君这样以偏概全地写出来,对于无法从多方面获取讯息的读者,难免会造成误导;这未免有失身为资深报人的责任与情操。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">萧源盛事件已成为公共议题,从这事件间接地反映出我国公民社会的发展。建立正义的公民社会,培养公民精神与提高公民意识需要理性且客观的讨论、反思与思辨。</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">最后,请别怀疑网民的智慧与理智因为并不是所有网民都是网络暴民。</span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-186504999058518679.post-39779855487379967912012-08-15T09:26:00.002-07:002012-08-15T10:08:06.519-07:00医院的走廊<span style="font-size: large;">在医院里那条繁忙的走廊,通常我都走得很快。
<br />无他,就是把自己装到好像很忙这样,因为医生们都是走得很快的。
<br />虽然我穿到很像医生,也有人说我样子像医生。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">但是别被我样子骗了,我不是医生。
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<br />另外,快步走也是让自己减少心酸的方法;因为可以减少我的视线停留在那种心酸的画面。
<br />可是我的眼睛就是特别厉害注意到这些事情,可能和好奇心驱使有关吧。
<br />比如,老人家在病痛之余迷茫寻找的眼神(找不到哪里看医生、拿药、还是等待人家接送?),他们的孩子都去了哪里?为何没有陪父母看病?
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<br />之前,我常见到一位华裔中年男子坐在轮椅,他总是在领药处和这繁忙的走廊的交界处徘徊。
<br />他的右脚脚趾都坏疽(gangrene)到了呈黑色状态,最后两只脚趾不知是自己脱落了还是已经被医生截肢了。
<br />我比较相信那是自己脱落,因为它的表面不均匀。
<br />就像是枯枝般,干了、脆了,折一下就“krak~”一声,断了。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">折断了的表面不均匀。
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<br />可以想象到,他是患有糖尿病的病患,血糖控制不好加上没有护理脚而变成这个样子。
<br />亦可以预知他的下一步,迟早将会是膝下截肢。
<br />他在那里徘徊是向来来往往的人讨钱。
<br />当我走过,要靠近他时我会很自然的不与他有眼神接触,以避免他跟我讨钱但是我让他失望的状况出现。
<br />但是他没有,可能没机会,跟我讨钱。
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<br />坦白点告诉你,如果他跟我讨钱,我不会也没有打算给;原因很简单,帮不了他。
<br />我在想,他很大可能不是住院的病人,因为他没有穿病人的住院病服。
<br />再来,住院三餐无忧何必讨钱? </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">可是如果不是住院,他怎样每天来那边讨钱?我到现在还是不明白。</span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">最后我发现到,自尊已被他的落魄放逐,他讨钱时说话声量不大,脸部表情单调,眼神有点涣散。
<br />他,没有方向。
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<br />这两个星期,我发现华裔中年男子没出现了。
<br />加入这行列的是一位印裔中年男子。
<br />他出现在那里徘徊,可是他给我的感觉和那位华裔仁兄有点不一样。
<br />情景一样,他穿着自己的衣服,坐在轮椅,右脚是被褐米色绷带包扎起来的。
<br />整个足部看了很bulky,不知是肿胀还是其他问题。
<br />至少我还没看到他跟人家讨钱,可是我预测他会跟人家讨钱;可能已经讨着我没看到,但这只是迟早的问题。
<br />请原谅我的主观,我的信心是来自观察经验和我那奇怪但你不了解的直觉。
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<br />他给我感觉不一样的地方是,他所展现出来的“信心”。
<br />所谓的信心,我觉得是至少他还觉得自尊在他心里还有点位置,虽然零零散散,但他仍展露出笑容以掩盖他的“拍写”。
<br />我注意到,他在那边徘徊时,对多数和他有眼神接触的人,他都会以很礼貌但不认输的笑脸应对。
<br />所谓礼貌但不认输的笑脸是有点不自然,有点勉强地把两个脸颊往旁边拉,没有露齿,稍微咪咪眼然后同时中等幅度地点头,尽量挽回颜面。
<br />他的个子应该是个蛮高大的人,但是坐在轮椅上让他变得矮小了。
<br />我主观地觉得,慢慢地、慢慢地,他也会变成之前所提的华裔中年男子般,放逐自尊。
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<br />今天,突然在医院这繁忙的走廊遇到了我办公楼的保安马来夫妻,才惊觉这位马来仁兄爆瘦得厉害。
<br />这时才发现原来我已一段日子没有见到他在我的办公楼做保安。
<br />他妻子说他患上了大肠癌,住院住了四十多天,动了手术,目前接受化疗。
<br />我看到他们的无奈,也看到他们的坚强。
<br />我唯有告诉他“多些向上苍祈祷,积极面对,你将会好起来。”
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<br />人生,就是这么无奈。</span>Botakmanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09979422980004565116noreply@blogger.com0